You Made Me Live Again
POSTED AT 03:19 PM in My Life and what's left of it...

for my one and only true love, Mahal Kita, today, tomorrow, forever....

Listening to: You Made Me Live Again

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Once in a Lifetime
POSTED AT 03:13 PM in My Life and what's left of it...

"When love comes sweetly in your door, embrace completely what your soul is longing for...."

That's one of the sweetest line from the song "Nothing can stop us now". And yes, it is true. There is a one great love who comes only once in our whole lifetime. Thus, one must keep an open heart, an open mind, an open soul to sieze the moment.

I have to chosen to give love a chance.

I have chosen to keep my heart open.

I have chosen to sieze the moment.

And yes, I am happy.

 

You see, with all the bad experiences I had with love, with men, others say I would be foolish to be in a relationship again. Well, let me be a fool, let me be stupid, if it means I could be happy and contented like this, so be it.

I took a leap of faith. I am laying down all my cards here. This is my ultimate quest for personal happiness and I vow to make this a worhtwhile experience. I am starting another journey -- a journey to a life full of love, of passion, of concern, of bliss, of contentment. I'm not going to waste this opportunity.

And so I may have to choose among many options. I may have to experience the consequences of my decisions. I am ready. I have implored His help on this. I may have to suffer some pain but it'll be all worth it. I have found what i have been looking and I'm never letting go.

I love you... thanks for making me live again...

Listening to: Nothing Can Stop Us Now
Feeling: content

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Career Path
POSTED AT 02:37 PM in My Life and what's left of it..., People

I was never afraid of the changes in my life. I've been through a lot of transitions lately. My journey to motherhood was one of the biggest transition that I've ever experienced in my life.

Career-wise, I had a few transitions as well. The last time was when I allowed myself to work on something which is way below my capacity. No, I don't mean to belittle my present job. I love my job, this is my bread and butter, the reason why I was able to achieve the financial part of motherhood.

Yet, I cannot deny the fact that the job is not me. If one would read through my credentials, he'll be puzzled why I am in my current job. It happened several times. Many people have questioned me about my choice. Well, this was the first (and maybe the only) company which entrusted me a job during my most difficult times. I actually owe the company my survival as well as my little darling's.

Well, the company acknowledges the fact that I can do more. And that I am nearing the stage of getting burnt out. I wanted challenges. I want to practice what college has taught me. I want to work with hardware and find myself in the middle of networking equipment and gadgets. And so, I am about to go through another transition.

I will be assigned to another task. I am happy and at the same time worried. Will I be successful in this change? Will I be able to do my tasks well? I know I needed to read a lot. I have forgotten my networking basics and I am not updated with the current networking technologies. This is gonna be difficult!

But I am accepting the challenge. I will not let this opportunity pass me. This has been my dream ever since I graduated my Computer Engineering course. No one wanted me then though, they thought I am trying to do a man's job and that I may not do it right. Yup, I was unfairly judged. But now, I am given the chance to prove I can do a man's job!

I do hope I'll be able to work out my worries on this time of another transition in my life. I was able to do it 4 years ago when I tried Software Engineering, I hope I can do it again now. My fingers are crossed...

Feeling: excited

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Awww! I Feel Good!
POSTED AT 12:51 PM in My Life and what's left of it..., People

Hihihi!

The truth is, I'm still a little dizzy and exhausted but oh well, I had fun!

You see, I was one of the bride's maids in my cousin's wedding yesterday (yeah, the one whom I created the invitations for). The location is actually an hour or more (depends on who's driving, hehehe) from Davao City so me and my cousins (and aunts and uncles) traveled twice -- the night before the wedding for the rehearsal and on the wedding day itself.

I know I shouldn't have agreed on being one of the entourage since I will only end up hurting myself with the way my marriage life has ended (and began for that matter) but my dear cousin pleaded (sigh), I mean we're really close to each other. He even bribed me with compliments, telling me that he wanted a very pretty bride's maid for her soon-to-be wife so it's important that I'm there. Yeah right! But well, the thought tickled my fancy anyways! Hahaha!

So we were there the night before the wedding and got exhausted with all the traveling, especially that we have to look good and fresh the day after for the actual wedding.

I actually love witnessing church weddings even if I'm separated right now. I mean, my life is my life, the whole marriage thing has nothing to do with it. I'm not bitter about other people finding the love of their lives and end up marrying them and living a blissful life. A wedding will always be memorable, special, sacred and romantic.

And so I was all eyes and ears during the ceremony and got really busy (bride's maids stuff and taking pictures of course! hahaha!) during the reception. I love the motif. Royal blue is actually stunning and my gown was not bad at all even if it was rather big and long on me (guess I still am losing weight huh! and height? hahaha!). And the reception area is really beautiful! I love the place as mush as I love the food

 

I went home exhausted yet feeling really good. I don't know. It seems like the wedding made me wanna live again. It made me see the beauty and joy of life -- made me appreciate all the good things that life has to offer. Yeah, I feel good alright!

 

Listening to: From This Moment On by Shania Twain

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Gettin' Busy
POSTED AT 12:58 PM in My Life and what's left of it..., My Creations

I know I have problems to deal with, a son who takes most of my time when I'm not working, housechores (like cooking) I love doing even if the helper is around, a novel to finish and even two blogs to maintain... but I can't say no to my cousin.

The truth is, I really appreciate their confidence in talent and skills. I'm tickled to the bones that my ability, ahem, in desktop publishing is being sought by relatives and friends alike. And so I said yes.

So now, I am busy with my cousin's wedding invitation. The wedding's gonna be on the 21st of September and I was given a week to finish all 50 invitations. Well, the count started last Sunday, I'm supposed to give the finished product tomorrow then. I'm done with designing, printing, cutting and folding, I'm yet to put the ribbons though. Hayyy.. So little time, so much to do. I hope I get to finish this tonight.

I like my paper creations. You see, I've been doing this since I was in college. I've done so many wedding and birthday invitations already. I did my own wedding invitation (yeah, for that @$#% wedding, hahaha!), all my sisters' wedding invitations too, my cousins', my aunt's, my friends' and even their kids' birthday party invites. I design wedding and birthday giveaways too, as well as personalized cards, calling cards and t-shirt designs for printing. The truth is, I wanted to run my own business on desktop publishing. I even started making identification cards 2 years ago, until the project was shelved due to an unplanned event (yeah right!). Sigh.. I really wish I will have my own creative shop someday, it will be called mApLeKiSsEs CrEaTiOnS. Cool eh?

Yay! Look at the time! Enough daydreaming already, I have to finish the invitations. Bye for now...

Feeling: busy

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