Heartaches
POSTED AT 09:26 AM in My Life and what's left of it..., That's what you call Music

Sad, isn't it? But they say life isn't complete without heartaches and pains. And the sooner you come to accept that fact, the better. So this is life huh? I guess it's much better than no life at all right?

I say I've been through too much heartaches in my life that I am sure I know what I am talking about. Yes, this field is my expertise. I've grown so accustomed to have my heart broken over and over again that honestly, it doesn't hurt anymore. I used to cry bucket of tears but now, I can't even wet a tissue! Oh my! It's as if I have been expecting that nothing will work out for me anymore and that just like my past relationships, this one will end too, and it did. It really is just a question of "When".

Nahhh, I'm not bitter about it. I did everything I can do, I put up a good fight, but the end has to come. It's inevitable. You see, no matter how hard I try, no matter how much love and trust I invest, everything is bound to end. But there's no way I'm gonna feel bitter, or feel pity for myself. Neither will I gonna blame myself for all those heartaches. I think I am sane enough not to inflict pain to myself. I didn't do it to myself, this is just fate working against my wants. That simple.

Listening to: Till My Heartaches End by Ella Mae Saison
Watching: my sleeping angel...
Feeling: amused

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If I Were A Boy
POSTED AT 02:46 PM in My Life and what's left of it..., That's what you call Music

I was listening to Beyonce's "If I Were A Boy" and it made me think about the men who took me for granted in the past. The thought almost led me to tears again but the action was lost before it started when I firmly told myself "Don't let another boy ruin you again, don't let anybody reduce you into someone akin to an unfeeling animal".

I know I was a pathetic hopeless romantic before. I remember a friend of mine telling a common friend of ours that I fall easily and I fall fast. I guess she's right and it saddens me to realize I was that obvious -- that others see me as a loser just because I hunger for love.

If I Were A Boy? I'm not really sure what I will do, but I am certain of what I will never do. I will never take advantage of a girl's tendency to love wholeheartedly. But I am not a boy. And though being a girl made me experience a whole lot of heartbreaks in the past, I'm still thankful I'm not a boy... If you know what I mean.

Listening to: If I Were A Boy by Beyonce Knowles
Feeling: blah

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I love these Beats!
POSTED AT 01:37 PM in That's what you call Music

I was inspired alright, I was even thinking of buying some beats later (I still have to fund my Paypal account). You see, it's fairly easy to order these beats. You can actually do it in 3 easy steps. First, one has got to select the beats (it's not easy to select though since all the beats are great!) you want to purchase by putting a mark on the beat's specific checkbox. After choosing, you may click the "Buy Now" button. Second, the system will then take you to the mode of payment page wherein you have the option to pay these beats through PayPal Direct Transfer, PayPal credit/debit card or Paypal eCheck. Third, a link will then be given to you after you confirm payment and voila! You may now download the audio files that you ordered! Told you it's easy. Then there's a plus too! You can be a Featured Artist in the site as well. All you have to do is sub,it your recorded song and after Mike and Eliot evaluated the song and find it to be of great quality, you will be featured in the site! Now I really wanted to play a musical instrument!

I can't believe I got so carried away with the beats in this site that I spent 2 hours or so listening to the streaming music. What can I say? I'm a music lover as well.

Listening to: Memories by Mike Lightner @ http://www.jeejuh.com/
Feeling: upbeat

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How Do You Keep The Music Playing?
POSTED AT 10:46 AM in My Life and what's left of it..., That's what you call Music

I was listening to James Ingram and Patti Austin belting the song, then I suddenly found myself asking the same question. How?

All of the sudden, my mind goes blank. I can think of nothing, see nothing. Just all black -- pitch black. I know I can never answer the question as much as I can never keep my enthusiasm in doing things I wanna do.

I just can't keep going. I've lost my touch.

Listening to: How Do You Keep The Music Playing? by James Ingram and Patti Austin
Feeling: blank

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All I Ask of You
POSTED AT 12:11 PM in That's what you call Music, Big screen ravings

I watched the Phantom of the Opera (again) last Saturday. I’ve seen it about four times already but I love watching it again. It’s actually my most favorite musical.

It never fails to give me the chill even after seeing it for many times, especially the part wherein “The Phantom” had witnessed Christine and Raoul singing All I Ask of You together. His heart was broken over and over and I can almost feel his pain which turn into anger. Tsk! Love!

Going back to the song, All I Ask of You is a real beautiful song – both the melody and the lyrics. Yeah, it’s one of my favorites and I’m still wondering how it feels to have someone who only asks for your love and nothing more, someone who vows to protect you from all harm and give you all you wanted and yet all he asks of you is for you to love him. Sigh….

No more talk of darkness,
Forget these wide-eyed fears.
I'm here, nothing can harm you -
my words will warm and calm you.

Let me be your freedom,
let daylight dry -your tears.
I'm here, with you, beside you,
to guard you and to guide you . . .

Say you love me every
waking moment,

turn my head with talk of summertime . . .

Say you need me with you,
now and always . . .
promise me that all you say is true -
that's all I ask of you . . .

Let me be your shelter,
let me be your light.
You're safe: No-one will find you
your fears are far behind you . . .

All I want is freedom,
a world with no more night . . .
and you always beside me
to hold me and to hide me . . .

Then say you'll share with me one
love, one lifetime . . .
Iet me lead you from your solitude . . .

Say you need me with you
here, beside you . . .
anywhere you go, let me go too -
Baby, that's all I ask
of you . . .

Say you'll share with me one
love, one lifetime . . . say the word
and I will follow you . . .

Share each day with me, each
night, each morning . . .

Say you love me . . .

You know I do . . .

Love me - that's all I ask of you . . .

Anywhere you go let me go too . . .
Love me - that's all I ask of you . .

 

Feeling: in love

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