The Truth...
POSTED AT 12:20 PM in My Life and what's left of it..., Loving and Living

There are times we just can't deal with the truth. Sometimes, the truth is just too painful that we tend to hide underneath the layers of lies to protect ourselves.

There are times too that we just have to expose the truth no matter how bad it would make you. Sometimes, releasing the truth from your heart is like relieving ourselves of the pain that's inside.

The truth is... the truth is both the cause and the cure of my pains right now.

The truth is... I am not alright. That's really hard to admit but that's the truth.

The truth is... I cry stupid tears every night wishing things could have been different.

The truth is... I'm tired, very very tired.

And you know what? I know of the possibility that telling the truth or showing the one person who loves me so much the truth about who I am would jeopardize a wonderful future that I dreamt of but I really think I owe this person the truth.

The truth is... I am not who he thinks I am. I am not a strong person, I am not a good person, I am not a stable person. I am not a superwoman. I cannot do what I thought I can do. I am a big failure.

This truth may cause me my future; this truth may mean I'll have to go through life alone, as I always did in the past; this truth may cause me my sanity, my happiness, my life...

But this is the truth. It's time to face it.

Feeling: depressed

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