The wait is driving me mad! I can't wait to be with him again!

I know everybody would say, "Oh the days fly real fast, he'll be here soon!". But the days are agonizingly slow, really really slow. So slow that I sometimes feel the earth stop moving.

I'm happy. Don't get me wrong. I am happy seeing my love's smiling face everyday, talking to him just about anything. I should be thankful that yes, we're still strongly inlove and are both looking forward to a wonderful family life in the future. But God! I feel so down, it's depressing.

I feel so uninspired, like I don't want to do anything at all, well, except for taking care of my son which is taking almost all of my 24 hours, but well, aside from doing that, I don't feel like doing anything else at all. I know this is just a phase, I'll get over this sad feeling, but I want to get over this fast.

I only know two events that will stop this crazy feelings -- it's already October 1 when I wake up tomorrow or a mailman would wake me up and hand me a letter from the embassy tomorrow -- either way, I'll be jumping up and down like crazy, crying and laughing at the same time

But oh well, I know I just have to concentrate on the positive things ... my Mahal is coming and USCIS is sending a response soon. I know, all of these maddening sad thoughts in my mind would all go away... I hope... I have to stay sane for my son, I cannot be selfish all the time.

75, 74, 73, 72, 71, 70...... Argghhh!

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