MAY'S JOURNAL
Entries for December, 2008
December 3rd, 2008
A Heartless Animal POSTED AT 07:41 PM in The World I was appalled, I was mortified, I was disgusted, I was angry, very angry, that I cried tears of anger. What a heartless woman! Only a vile, cold-blooded, callous animal can do such thing! I don’t want to rant in Little Nicholas’ website though this post is about a baby and his supposed-Mom/parents. My God! I cannot bear to post this in my baby’s blog! To include such a horrible incident in my baby’s wonderful and decent site is monstrous! This is an indecent post – as the post is about an indecent mother (and father) who threw away her new-born baby (with the cord still uncut and unclean) in a dirty creek in Manila. I just can’t bear the sight of it. My throat was dry when I watched the news and I touched my belly, protecting Little Nicholas from the harshness of the world. I can’t believe a mother can do such thing. Why? Why for God’s sake throw a baby in a creek when you nurtured him on your womb for nine months? Don’t you know he’s a gift from God? Why kill an innocent child? Was he dead when he got out? Can’t you give him a decent burial? Are you as poor as a mouse? Can you not feed the child? Did the baby’s Dad abandon you? Don’t you want the baby? What did the poor baby do to you? He did nothing to deserve that. He’s just a baby… just a poor baby. Yes, I’m crying. I’m crying for that wasted life. I’m crying for all the babies who are left with no choice, who cannot choose their parents. I cry for the babies that we cannot protect from the evilness and ugliness of this world. Oh God, I’m crying for that baby in the creek. Whoever bore the child is a monster. Whatever your reasons are, even if you have mountains of reasons, nothing can justify this gruesome and immoral decision of yours. It was such an evil act and I hope your conscience eat you alive. Feeling: sick 2 comments now. Add yours.
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December 4th, 2008
I hate how I look! POSTED AT 07:29 AM in My Life and what's left of it... I just woke up from a silly dream. It was my company’s Christmas party apparently when my eye caught a woman running towards the bathroom. I followed her and it seems silly that I can see her inside the cubicle crying. I felt sillier when I realized I can even read her mind. She kept on telling herself, “I’m ugly, ugly, ugly” while crying inside that cubicle. At first, I didn’t realize it was me, crying. I even commented, “Who’s that ugly chick, crying and ruining her make-up in the process?” I stifled a gasp when it struck me that it was me! I woke up with a start. I hurried in front of the mirror and looked myself over and cringed on my reflection. I look ugly alright. My hair’s a mess, which is understandable since I just woke up but it really looks dry and unhealthy! I will have to have it cut before this year ends! Oh, but I love my long hair… Still, I can’t have this long, ugly hair, I want my beautiful hair back! And my facial skin! It felt so rough and dry as well, I even have these pimples which seem to like staying on my face! I have to get rid of them! But I’m still in a condition wherein beauty products is a no-no. Gosh! I guess I’ll have to wait. And my eyes! Good lord! Where do these eye bags came from? When did they happen? And my nose? Why is it getting bigger? Shucks! I am ugly, no question about that! I tried to “fix” everything by smiling, but I guess it worsen my looks. I hate my teeth! I used to melt people’s heart by my radiant smile, but oh, I just can’t do that right now! My upper set of teeth is fine. But the lower part! I need invisalign to straighten them! I used to have braces way back in college. It was meant to straighten and maintain my teeth positioning but I really can’t remember why I suddenly stopped using those braces. Maybe it’s because I was so uncomfortable with it or it has become an impediment to my speaking activities. But it’s not too late to bring back that radiant smile right? I mean, I can cut my hair and wait for it to be lustrous and healthy again. I can use those beauty products at last and have a clearer, radiant skin. I’m sure my nose will be back to its regular size before the year ends. But I have to do something with my teeth! So I searched for invasalign methods in the web and found it in the Complete Dental website. Why invasalign? Because I’ve heard about the process before and I know that it is an orthodontic therapy which aims to straighten teeth invisibly without using the traditional braces. Going back to the site, hmmm, Dr. David Landau’s smile is great! I wish I have that perfect smile! I went over the site’s gallery, I know that’s where I can see the before and after pictures and I was right! I badly needed that process in the Case 1 image, but it will be on my lower set of teeth. I’m in the Philippines right now and the service is offered in California. I really wish I made it to the USA two years ago I could have gotten the aid of a San Diego Cosmetic Dentist by now. Sigh! But well… maybe next time. Now back to the overall pressing matters… I really have to do something with my physical appearance. I’m no vain, but hey, it feels good to look good! Feeling: discontent |
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December 9th, 2008
Writing those research papers again POSTED AT 09:24 AM in My Life and what's left of it..., Writing for sanity's sake So my old friend Clark came back from "hiding". Matured and educated people as we are, we forgot the misunderstandings and "fights" that we had in the past and decided to continue doing business as usual. He's giving me research assignments again and being in need of extra income, I agreed to take on those assignments.
I'm lucky that my regular job isn't so busy these days. I have time to research and write these papers until I'm due to give birth. It's good that I love doing researches and I love writing, earning extra is a must nowadays. Listening to: No Frontiers by The Corrs Feeling: accomplished |
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