Who says money can’t buy you peace of mind?
POSTED AT 11:14 AM in My Life and what's left of it..., My Little Nicholas

I have been ordered by my Gynecologist to give myself a 3-5 days complete bed rest. That’s starting November 1, 2008 (last Saturday) up to November 3 or 4 or 5.

The 1^st of November is a legal holiday, so I got lucky and I didn’t have to go to work (yeah, I work on Saturdays too). The next day’s Sunday, my sole day-off in a week, so I guess that’s 2 days down. But what about Monday? Do I really have to rest till Monday? Can I afford to miss work and also miss a day’s salary?

Ok. I know what others would say, what’s a day’s salary compared to the complications that may happen to you and your little angel if you don’t take another day off? Sigh. If only it’s that easy to miss a day’s income. If only I’m not pulling all strings to survive. Yes, to survive. I’m not living comfortably, I’m struggling to meet ends and I have to save for my upcoming D-Day.

So I was resting last Saturday and Sunday. It isn’t a complete bed rest though. How can I do that? Who’ll cook for me? Who’ll do the house chores? Who’ll do the laundry? Who’ll buy me my needs? For one, I was out of vitamins and milk and so I have no choice but to get up. Complete bed rest my a$$!

I even spent 2 whole days thinking about my inadequacy in the financial aspect, which again brought me to tears. And I was thinking of my decision too, whether to come to work on Monday or not. Tsk! Tsk! Was I resting! I never even had an hour of peace! (Ok, maybe I had on those 3 hours of sleep)

Who says money can’t buy you peace of mind? If I’ve had enough money, would I be having a hard time coming into a decision whether to miss work or not? If I’ve had enough money, wouldn’t I get myself a helper to attend to my needs? If I’ve had enough money, would I go sleepless and restless thinking about where to get money for this and money for that?

Double sigh, I’m getting nowhere with these questions…

Feeling: disappointed

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