MAY'S JOURNAL
Entries for November, 2008
November 3rd, 2008
Who says money can’t buy you peace of mind? POSTED AT 11:14 AM in My Life and what's left of it..., My Little Nicholas I have been ordered by my Gynecologist to give myself a 3-5 days complete bed rest. That’s starting November 1, 2008 (last Saturday) up to November 3 or 4 or 5. The 1st of November is a legal holiday, so I got lucky and I didn’t have to go to work (yeah, I work on Saturdays too). The next day’s Sunday, my sole day-off in a week, so I guess that’s 2 days down. But what about Monday? Do I really have to rest till Monday? Can I afford to miss work and also miss a day’s salary? Ok. I know what others would say, what’s a day’s salary compared to the complications that may happen to you and your little angel if you don’t take another day off? Sigh. If only it’s that easy to miss a day’s income. If only I’m not pulling all strings to survive. Yes, to survive. I’m not living comfortably, I’m struggling to meet ends and I have to save for my upcoming D-Day. So I was resting last Saturday and Sunday. It isn’t a complete bed rest though. How can I do that? Who’ll cook for me? Who’ll do the house chores? Who’ll do the laundry? Who’ll buy me my needs? For one, I was out of vitamins and milk and so I have no choice but to get up. Complete bed rest my a$$! I even spent 2 whole days thinking about my inadequacy in the financial aspect, which again brought me to tears. And I was thinking of my decision too, whether to come to work on Monday or not. Tsk! Tsk! Was I resting! I never even had an hour of peace! (Ok, maybe I had on those 3 hours of sleep) Who says money can’t buy you peace of mind? If I’ve had enough money, would I be having a hard time coming into a decision whether to miss work or not? If I’ve had enough money, wouldn’t I get myself a helper to attend to my needs? If I’ve had enough money, would I go sleepless and restless thinking about where to get money for this and money for that? Double sigh, I’m getting nowhere with these questions… Feeling: disappointed Share your thoughts here.
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November 3rd, 2008
All I Ask of You POSTED AT 12:11 PM in That's what you call Music, Big screen ravings I watched the Phantom of the Opera (again) last Saturday. I’ve seen it about four times already but I love watching it again. It’s actually my most favorite musical. It
never fails to give me the chill even after seeing it for many times,
especially the part wherein “The Phantom” had witnessed Christine and Raoul
singing All I Ask of You together. His heart was broken over and over
and I can almost feel his pain which turn into anger. Tsk! Love! Going
back to the song, All I Ask of You is a real beautiful song – both the melody and
the lyrics. Yeah, it’s one of my favorites and I’m still wondering how it feels
to have someone who only asks for your love and nothing more, someone who vows
to protect you from all harm and give you all you wanted and yet all he asks of
you is for you to love him. Sigh….
turn my head with talk of summertime . . . Love me - that's all I ask of you . . .
Feeling: in love |
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Say you need me with you,November 3rd, 2008
I’m Missing Them Again POSTED AT 12:20 PM in My Life and what's left of it... Since my Sundays are usually spent reflecting about my life, I have had enough time to think about my family again. Months, it has been 6 months since I’ve seen them. It seems like 6 years though. When others think time flies so fast, I seem to feel the contrary. I do believe though that time flies fast when you’re happy. And so it isn’t a surprise why time flies so slow for me. I miss my cute nieces and my one and only nephew. I miss giving them my big hug, even simultaneously carrying two or three of them in my arms. I miss the way they childishly vie for my attention, the way they cling to me like I’m their mother. I miss the cute way they ask for my opinion over trivial matters like Mama May, is my drawing nice? or Mama May, am I allowed to eat this chocolate? I miss playing “horsie-horsie” with them, or those “pillow fights”, those “monster attacks”, those cooking and eating sessions… It’s sad, really sad to miss their growth, their schooling, their everything. I want to hold them in my arms again. I miss my sisters; our secret jokes, our silly games, our funny moments, even the sad ones -- the times when we used to fight over childish things and then laugh about it after a few minutes; the times we used to argue over trivial matters and then cling our arms together after we’ve meet halfway; the times when we cried together over sad family issues, or laugh together over the funny ones. I miss the support that we gave each other whenever problems arise and it seems there’s no one else to talk to, no one else will understand better but us. I miss my Papa too. I miss his jokes, his loud laughs. I miss his moods, his sudden and loud anger that was quickly gone and replaced by a happy aura. Papa and I, we were never close. Maybe it’s because we were not able to reach out to each other. Maybe it’s because we’re so comparable in many ways that we repel each other. That never stopped me from loving him so much though. Even after he abandoned me on this time when I needed him most. Even after he implied he never loved me and that I’ve done something unforgivable in his eyes. I miss him so much. I miss my Mama, and my tears are running down my cheeks while I’m typing those words. I can’t help it. I am in a situation wherein I badly needed a hug. I miss my Mama’s warm embrace. I want her so much to comfort me, to tell me things will be ok. To tell me I’ll be fine, that I can handle this… that she’s with me all the way, giving me strength. I want to hold my Mama’s hand. I want feel her reassuring touch. I want hear her whisper on my ears I love you. I want to cling to her and never let go. I miss my family. And thinking that I wouldn’t be spending New Year with them cuts like a knife…
Feeling: alone |
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November 6th, 2008
At last! Telecommute! POSTED AT 03:58 PM in My Life and what's left of it... Yey! I have my internet connection at home now! I'm definitely telecommuting starting today! Yes! No more waking up early in the morning to prepare myself in going to the office. No more bumpy tricycle rides, no more going up and down to the 3rd floor through those stairs. Yipee! I just hope this is all worth it. That my monthly payment for this internet conenction would pay out. Well, it definitely gives me the chance to stay home and take that rest prescribed by my doctor and it will definitely give me all the time to take care of my Little Nicholas as well when he comes out. Yep, it's definitely worth it. I have to get busy though. There are mail settings to be set-up, files to be arranged, plug-ins to download, programs to install -- then I can start working! Tadah... Have to get busy now! I'm still working after all! Hihihi! Just dropped by to tell you the good news. Listening to: Time After Time by Cindy Lauper Feeling: accomplished |
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November 8th, 2008
Dinner At Lighthouse POSTED AT 01:20 PM in My Life and what's left of it... We @ Advibe enjoy our get-together dinners and activities. Well, our team manager, Jeedo missed seeing our pretty faces, hihihi! So he invited us to another free dinner last night. (Hope Jeedo misses us every week, hahaha!). So we went to Light House at Gaisano City Mall to have our eat-all-you-can. It was fun-filled, not only because the food was actually great, but also because we really had a great time discussing stuff that matters (not to mention sistah and I enjoyed our picture taking!). Sad though that some of our teammates wasn't able to make it due to some personal reasons. Nevertheless it was fun hangin out with the rest of the team. I almost forgot I'm about to explode, hihihi! I excitedly made a slideshow of the pictures in my photobucket account and of course, I embedded the slideshow for you guys to see it. If you wanna see the images though and maybe download some (especially sistah), just click this link to that album. Sistah, Jun, Kim and I also went to Skypark after dinner. Sistah wants to see the place co'z she haven't been there (well, it was my first time there too). The place is cool, it has a live band too (though I wasn't much impressed, hahaha!). As usual, we were there to take pictures LOL! Well, we like to see the place too, ok? It was fun alright!
Feeling: amused |
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November 11th, 2008
I'm a new Hubber! POSTED AT 09:23 AM in My Life and what's left of it..., Writing for sanity's sake I joined HubPages and my first hub was entitled The Many Stupid Things A Driver Can Do, followed by the hub Earning $$$ Through Joining a Discussion and Early Christmas in the Philippines. You might ask me then, what is HubPages? It is actually a website wherein any member (called a hubber) can publish his hub and earn from it. So what's a hub? According to HubPages, a hub is a rich (all-in-one?) web page that a hubber writes and designs, it's actually like a blog post or an article that one publishes but it's more than that. Now this is getting somewhere! Hihihi! It's like this, every article that a hubber publishes, he's creating a web page that has text, pictures, videos and links. Yeah, sounds like your own blogspace for free. So, who owns the content that are published in HubPages? The hubber of course! HubPages said they are simply providing the technology to support every hubber's content publishing activity. A hubber can even file a copyright complaint if someone else in HubPages plagiarized his copyrighted content without permission. Now that's cool! I actually just submitted three hubs to date, I have been busy with work and all other article submission sites, not to mention I maintain two blogs, so I really can't spend too much time there, but well, I'm trying. I really aim for my hubs to be designated not only as the Latest or the Best but also as a Hot Hub -- being hot means my hub is getting a lot of traffic, which means I write interesting contents. Sad to say, I guess my hubs are boring huh! But I guess you wanted to know if one can really earn as a hubber. Yes of course. The interent is a very wealthy workplace huh? So how does one makes money in HubPages? One way is through earning from Royalties. Meaning? The HubPages will allow its hubbers to take advantage of advertising revenue and commission by setting up their very own Google, eBay and Amazon affiliate accounts. Thus, Google will automatically display relevant ads on the hubber's topic (and of course, ever ad click is equivalent to money earned). That goes the same for eBay and Amazon wherein their products (hubber decides which products to highlight) can be featured and advertised on a hubber's hub. But of course, HubPages earns from these ads as well so how does a specific hubber earn? Well, any revenue generated according to the specific impressions definitions of each advertiser (Google ads click, eBay and Amazon actual purchase) is 100% owned by a hubber. Yup, every impression is owned by a hubber. however, as a courtesy to HubPages, a hubber will have to split the impressions with them as follows: 1. From a hubber's Hubs: Hubbers receive 60% of total impressions, HubPages gets 40% 2. HubPages Affiliate Program: Hubbers can refer new writers to HubPages and if these refered writers become Hubbers within 30 days, the one who referred will receive an additional 10% of the referred Hubber's Hubs’ lifetime impressions. 3. HubPages Traffic Referral Program: Any traffic sent traffic to any Hub (yes, any Hub), entitles the Hubber to either 9% or 12% of total impressions. Interested? Join Now! Listening to: We're All In This Together (from High School Musical) Feeling: busy |
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November 12th, 2008
A Love To Last POSTED AT 06:38 AM ... that's my fervent wish for my dearest friend Mandy and her gummy bear Nathan.
The couple celebrated their 1st year anniversary last November 10, 2008 and I find it so sweet for my friend to dedicate a lovely poem to her husband. I think the world needs that kind of love as well so I hope Mandy wouldn't mind if I share her sweetness her in my blog. You can read about their love here. I'm just so happy to ponder about their love affair. I always find it like a fairy tale come true. I know Mandy never had the best of everything in her life before but Nathan really changed all of that. His love is enough to send Mandy floating in the clouds of bliss and contentment. I really wish them all the best. To Mandy, whatever happened in the past, whatever happens today, whatever will happen tomorrow, you're still my very best friend and I love you so much. To Nathan, from the very first time I saw you with Mandy, I feel secured that you'll never ever hurt my friend and that you love her very much; you are the most generous and loving soul I've ever met. Cheers to more blissful years of marriage! Listening to: Now and Forever by Air Supply Feeling: happy |
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November 12th, 2008
I Love You.. and I'll See You Soon POSTED AT 09:29 AM in My Life and what's left of it..., My Little Nicholas Ahhh! I'm soooo happy upon reading that message. I can never sleep thinking about it, hoping I wasn't dreaming... Mama, mama you know I love you Mama sent me that message last night. I was like a crazy child re-reading the message over and over again. I even turned off the mobile phone and then opened it again to make sure the message will stay there even after doing so. Yes, I was that crazy.... and really happy! I was contented the Mama and I are texting and calling each other again. I never really expected she'll come upon Little Nicholas' arrival and she's really excited! I'm just wishing Papa's coming with her and that he's not angry anymore. Oh, I won't let anything cloud this post. I'm too happy, I'll just think of happy things about that upcoming visit. I'm so excited! Listening to: A Song For Mama by Boyz II Men Feeling: excited |
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November 13th, 2008
A Real Home for my Angel POSTED AT 12:46 PM in My Life and what's left of it..., My Little Nicholas I was reading other people's blogs yesterday and I found this site with pictures of beautiful homes in it. I was happy browsing through lots of beautiful interior designs and then I realized I was crying in front of the monitor. I guess I miss my family's home, our home.
The next thing I know, I was browsing my hard drive for the videos I took at home. There were about six videos and I watched them one by one, satisfying the hunger that I felt inside me. Ahhh... home sweet home! I looked around my room and though I am quite satisfied with what I am seeing, I still crave for a real home -- something Little Nicholas and I can call our own. Some ideas came into my mind then, like getting a home loan from a bank or from Pag-ibig Fund. I remember my friend who's in Massachusetts right now. He told me he and his wife Mariah got a house through Amerisave which actually helped him and his wife find a house from top to bottom. Meaning, that includes the costing of title insurance, then there's the attorney fee, the appraisal, etc. Whew! I never thought housing loans and mortgages are that complicated. I wish I can get that professional help that he enjoyed as well. I’m really wishing for a home of my own. Little Nicholas deserves a beautiful nest. I’m fervently hoping I can provide him that. I really wanted to give him the best. Feeling: hopeful |
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November 13th, 2008
The Upcoming GenMeet POSTED AT 01:04 PM in My Life and what's left of it... So we will have another company General Meeting this Saturday, November 15, 2008. This is actually a quarterly event and my officemates are really excited.
I wonder what will happen that day? Will there be exciting games and surprises? Another round of awards maybe? Will there be some informative corporate videos? Will they be using a projector for that? Or just a small laptop? Hahaha! No way! If there's a video, the company should get a projector for that right? Speaking of projectors, I was browsing for videos at truveo.com when I stumbled upon a projector lamp center video. I spent some minutes watching the video and I was actually amazed. Now that's what you call projector lamp! Anyway, back to the Gen. Meet., I'm pretty sure my sistah-in-crime and me will be doing what we do best in events like this again. Yeah, that would be taking pictures! Hahaha! Well, I can't wait! Feeling: excited |
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November 13th, 2008
Wishing I Had A Bigger Screen POSTED AT 01:44 PM in My Life and what's left of it... I'm planning to watch another movie on my desktop tonight. I have been doing that (watching movies) almost every night on my 15-inch monitor ever since I bought the desktop package. I was somewhat contented with my screen, but well, human being as I am, I can't help but yearn for a bigger screen.
So I browsed the net and found this really cool site that showcases a wide array of big screens and big screen stuff -- from projectors, projector screens and mounts, audios and TVs! Wow! This big screen center is really something! My eyes were raving through the beautiful LCD televisions on display! Shucks! I want one of those! I imagine myself sitting in my own entertainment room and watching a beautiful movie on my Sharp 52" LCD display. Right! Dream on! Hahaha! But well, back to reality, I know I can't afford that luxury so I have to be contented with my 15" monitor right? But I'm still wishing... Who knows?
Feeling: dreamy |
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November 13th, 2008
Hospital Versus Home Delivery POSTED AT 01:59 PM in My Life and what's left of it..., My Little Nicholas Again, I found myself watching those live birth videos at YouTube. I know I already watched them but I just wanna make sure that I'm ready for that day, that I'm not missing anything so that Little Nicholas will arrive safely. Then I found some videos that show Mommies giving birth at home, on their own! Oh gosh! Upon watching the videos, these Mommies (along with their husbands) claim that home delivery is safer than hospital delivery since they can have control over the event. I was thinking against it though since I don't have my own birthing pool that this home delivery requires.
As for me though, I will entrust my Little Nicholas in a professional care over the hospital. I mean, I don't think I can do it. Though I know it's expensive to give birth in the hospital, this is my baby's life we are talking about, so why not spend for it? I just hope I'm ready for D-Day... just 2-3 weeks from now... I'm counting! Feeling: bouncy |
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These Mommies who are pro-home delivery also said something about not getting a good attention at the hospital. Now I remember reading an article before -- something about making patients wait in the Emergency Rooms. I am quite sure that article was written by a very talented healthcare professional who goes by the name November 14th, 2008
Yipee! My MyLot Payment! POSTED AT 01:20 PM in My Life and what's left of it...
Ok, I'm a show-off, hahaha! Actually, I'm just trying to share my blessings. Ahem! Yeah, that image shows my most recent payment from MyLot. This post actually serves another purpose as well, and that is to recruit my readers to MyLot. I will not lie to you, the site does have a referral program and I will earn from my referral's earnings but I guarantee you'll enjoy the community. The discussions there are fun and sensible and you'll get to meet great friends as well, aside from earning cash of course! And yeas, you can benefit from the referral program as you can refer your friends too! So what are you waiting for? Join me now! You'll surely like it there! See ya! Feeling: cheerful |
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November 21st, 2008
I've stopped reading books... POSTED AT 01:46 PM in My Life and what's left of it..., Reading for substance
I really wanted to buy another book you know and then get cozy and read on my bed. But I don't know, I just can't do it nowadays. It's not that I've lost the enthusiasm, I'm sure I still love books. It's just that I have been busy with other matters these days. And yeah, I admit, having this computer and internet connection at home contributed to my laziness in reading a book. Nowadays, I find myself online when I have the time. I have excuses too, like I'll say to myself, "Oh I can earn here, working online". Reading books won't give me money. But that's really stupid. Reading those books have helped me in the past. Maybe nobody's paying me to read those books, thus, I don't directly earn from that activity. But those books have helped me a lot in the past -- not only in helping me keep my sanity but also in gaining lots of knowledge about life. It also helped me strengthened my English vocabulary and grammar (not that I'm an expert). I love books. But why am I being lazy? I'm more into writing nowadays and most of my writings are even online. I don't get to write poems too. Am I losing my literary touch? I'm really sad about this. I hope I'll get to sit down sometime and read another good book from Jeffrey Archer or Barbara Taylor Bradford or Jacqueline Briskin, or that book Psycho from Keith Ablow. Shucks! I miss reading! Listening to: All At Once by Whitney Houston Feeling: anxious |
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November 25th, 2008
How Do You Keep The Music Playing? POSTED AT 10:46 AM in My Life and what's left of it..., That's what you call Music I was listening to James Ingram and Patti Austin belting the song, then I suddenly found myself asking the same question. How? All of the sudden, my mind goes blank. I can think of nothing, see nothing. Just all black -- pitch black. I know I can never answer the question as much as I can never keep my enthusiasm in doing things I wanna do. I just can't keep going. I've lost my touch. Listening to: How Do You Keep The Music Playing? by James Ingram and Patti Austin Feeling: blank |
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November 27th, 2008
What's wrong with tabulas today??? POSTED AT 11:38 AM I don't know what's happening or if this is also happening to other members but I am definitely going crazy with tabulas today! I have been trying to publish one post since 4 hours ago but everytime I click the "Post Entry" button, the only thing that you can see in my post are the title, the category and the other non-essential information! I want my content published and posted, not just those silly matters! Shucks! Ok, I'm ranting here! I guess it will be a big surprise if this rant will be published! I mean, what the @$%#$$#! There must be something wrong here. I just can't figure out what! Feeling: angry |
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November 27th, 2008
Football Enthusiasts - This is for you! POSTED AT 11:46 AM in Sports Buff Nowadays, I found my mind wandering into a more exciting avenue – Sports. I love my athletic mind and body. I have always been a sports buff all my life. That is why I was so enthusiastic when I found a very interesting site while searching for some sports issues – and I guess it’s just fair to share my great internet find with other sports buffs out there so you’ll experience the thrill as well. I am talking about Part of the Game TV. It is an internet-TV program channel which was launched by Carlsberg (yup, the king of beers) to celebrate football and the lives of millions of football fanatics all over the world.
The web-TV channel can be accessed @ http://partofthegame.tv/. I went through all 5 channels that show everything one must know and learn about football to being an enthusiast of this great sports. And was I amazed! It was definitely worth watching! Here’s a list of these 5 remarkable featured channels: • HALF-TIME (Once in a lifetime) • OUR GAME (Sleepless Winners) • FAN LIFE (The Soul of Solitude) • FOOTBALL MAGID (Great Danes Part 3) • ON TOUR (Liverpool)
There are actually more for us to watch and enjoy! I clicked the “ALL” button to see all videos/channels and oh-boy! I found lots of goodies! From football funny moments and “exposed” rituals to wacky and out of the ordinary fan stories. Wait till you see how some fans can go beyond good sense just because of their devotion to their teams and favorite players! And dig this, you can even upload (and share for the world to see) your very own football experiences and aficionado moments. Now this is really great! What are you waiting for? Check out this wonderful treat and experience the thrill, relive the excitement and enjoy these videos. Oh! Thanks to Carlsberg for launching this web-TV channel. You guys are the best! Listening to: We Are The Champions Watching: http://partofthegame.tv/ Feeling: sporty |
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November 29th, 2008
Another shot at Love POSTED AT 09:01 AM in My Life and what's left of it... Love is never lost. If not reciprocated, it will flow back and soften and purify the heart. I received that comment from a discussion that I started at MyLot recently. It made me think about my love status for a moment and I realize whoever wrote that is right. I was actually starting on another "miserable and lonely" poem. It's almost finish but a few days ago, I stopped writing the poem and realized I'm bringing pain unto myself again. So what if my love wasn't reciprocated? So what if I ended up in pain again? It isn't love's fault. Love's not to be blamed. No matter how many men breaks this heart of mine; no matter how much pain I feel everytime it gets torn into bits and pieces; no matter how much I bleed every time a love affair ends; no matter how much friends hurt me; I still can't stop myself from loving. Yes, I admit, I fall easily, I give in to love easily -- and I attribute that to the fact that I have so much love to give and not really expecting much in return. I can never lose love within me. Even those who've done wrong against me, I still love -- family, friends, ex-lovers -- maybe in different levels, but love is never lost. And the above quotation explains it all. Because everytime a person I love hurt me, love always flows back to me and softens and purifies my heart to forgive them and be ready to love and touch someone's life again. I just hope though I don't always end up in the losing end so I can stop being hard to myself... Listening to: True To Your Heart by 98 Degrees Feeling: inspired |
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November 30th, 2008
I love these Beats! POSTED AT 01:37 PM in That's what you call Music I'm sitting here in front of the computer when I suddenly decided to play my band's (Kindred Soul) playlist. I felt nostalgic and I imagined holding the microphone again singing to the upbeat music played by my bandmates. I miss my band!
So, to stop myself from being emotional again, I decided to switch off my MP3 player and just browsed the net for new beat music to add to my playlist. Why beat music? Because I love the way it makes my body moves. Besides, our Family Reunion is coming up and I'm sure we'll be needing beat music for the dancing part. I'm no Music Guru but to those who don't really know, Beat Music is a genre that combines rock and roll, skiffle and R&B/Soul genres. But it's actually a Pop Music genre. I guess its history can be traced back from United Kingdom in the early 60's. Anyway, I'm so happy that I found a great site that features new and fresh beat music and the music is streaming fast too as I listen. Cool! There are so many beat music to choose from so I feel like a child lost in a candy store and getting overwhelmed by so many Beats to try on! My personal favorites are Smash & Slow and Sad produced by Mike Lightner, and Malibu & A Touch of Gold by Eliot Waite.
 I was inspired alright, I was even thinking of buying some beats later (I still have to fund my Paypal account). You see, it's fairly easy to order these beats. You can actually do it in 3 easy steps. First, one has got to select the beats (it's not easy to select though since all the beats are great!) you want to purchase by putting a mark on the beat's specific checkbox. After choosing, you may click the "Buy Now" button. Second, the system will then take you to the mode of payment page wherein you have the option to pay these beats through PayPal Direct Transfer, PayPal credit/debit card or Paypal eCheck. Third, a link will then be given to you after you confirm payment and voila! You may now download the audio files that you ordered! Told you it's easy. Then there's a plus too! You can be a Featured Artist in the site as well. All you have to do is sub,it your recorded song and after Mike and Eliot evaluated the song and find it to be of great quality, you will be featured in the site! Now I really wanted to play a musical instrument! I can't believe I got so carried away with the beats in this site that I spent 2 hours or so listening to the streaming music. What can I say? I'm a music lover as well. Listening to: Memories by Mike Lightner @ http://www.jeejuh.com/ Feeling: upbeat |
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