Broken Vow
POSTED AT 02:52 PM in My Life and what's left of it..., That's what you call Music

Yesterday, I spent my day looking for a new house to relocate which turned out rather frustrating because I found none that suits my criteria. I was home by 4:00 in the afternoon and it was really hot in my room (one of the many reasons why I wanna relocate). I decided to sit at the veranda and listen to music while watching people walking to and from. I got sentimental again looking at their happy faces (I was facing the Park) so I focused on the music on my earphone. Then Lara Fabian's voice came without warning...

Tell me her name I want to know
The way she looks and where you go
I need to see her face, I need to understand
Why you and I came to an end...

I had to close my eyes to block the sight of the happy couples walking hand in hand just about 30 meters from me. I may have succeeded in doing so but the song has already penetrated my soul. As much as I hated to be sentimental nowadays, I found myself thinking about my only love again.

Tell me again I want to hear
Who broke my faith in all these years
Who lays with at night when I'm here all alone
Remembering when I was your own

I was trying to convince myself that I'm over him. But I cannot fool myself. I wanted to let him go. Didn't I let him go already? Didn't I tell myself there's no future for us? That I should let him find happiness in someone else's arms? Didn't he tell me he's happy with that Polish woman? Someone who's the exact opposite of me... But I have been loving him for years. We shared this vow, which we thought was unbreakable.

Tell me the words I never said
Show me the tears you never shed
Give me the chance, that one you promised to be mine
Or has it vanished for all time?

Then everything just went astray, just like that, and my life was shattered once again. He's happy somehow, somewhere, while I'm alone... Will I came to the same happiness someday too? Will I be able to gather the bits and pieces of my broken faith and reassemble them? Will I feel like a brand new individual then?

I'll let you go
I'll let fly
Why do I keep on asking why?
I'll let you go
Now that I've found
A way to keep somehow
More than a broken vow

I have to let him go, I have to stop asking questions that can never be answered, I have to accept that this is just another one of those broken vows and there will be more to come...

Listening to: For All of my Life by MYMP
Feeling: contemplative

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Just Do It
POSTED AT 09:09 AM in My Life and what's left of it..., My Little Nicholas

It was more than a month ago when my friend LordWarWizard from MYLOT started a discussion about "Doing it or Thinking about it first". I remembered I was in such a heavy state by then because of emotional issues that I responded with seven paragraphs! Oh my! I pity my friend, he must have slept reading all through my reply.

But yesterday, after logging-on to my account in MYLOT, I saw that he gave me the most coveted Best Reponse award out of more than 50 responses. Hmmmm... so I guess he didn't sleep through it. Yey!

I'm not sure if you are interested about my response but you can do nothing, I'm posting it here anyway, hahaha! So here it goes:

Shucks! I know I'm not indecisive but I do procrastinate at times. My friends would sometimes tell me "The problem with you May is that you think too much." Well, that made them think they had the right to see me as a boring person, a killjoy who doesn't appreciate risks and adventures because I have to think things over before plunging into it; thus, missing the "fun" sometimes.

But come to think of it, if I am a "thinker" and I don't just do it, why am I living a life that I'm living today? Don't get me wrong, having a baby is the most wonderful experience that I ever had (6 months preggy, hehehe) even if I am alone in this phase of my life and even if everybody has abandoned me for being an immoral person.

Does it mean I thought this over? That I wanted this? That I never jumped into the pregnancy wagon just like that? Hmmmm... I've been asking myself that too.

Having another life growing inside you is a risk indeed, and this time, I wasn't being killjoy, I embraced the "fun" of having a baby. I realized however that I didn't just do this. I didn't just decided "Hey, I wanna have a baby tonight, let's do it!" No, I didn't do that at all. I remember wanting this baby badly since I held my first niece in my arms, 9 years ago. And I remember this feeling growing whenever I think of my broken marriage.

Me, a separated woman, getting older, alone, lonely and childless... Of course I have to do something about it. And since my ex-hubby won't sign the annulment papers, I have to cross the morality gates as well. So I'm immoral for wanting a child. It breaks my heart to hear others whisper that I'm having a b@st@rd, I ache for my little Nicholas. But this is the consequence of wanting to have someone to love and to cherish forever. I may not have the chance of happiness with another man again but I am willing to bet my life that my own little Nicholas will never abandon me and will always be there for me until the day I die.

*Sniff, now I'm making a drama out of your discussion. My apologies, I guess, discussions such as this, makes me get carried away and away to nothingness....

No, I don't think I'm a "Just do it" person, I'm still the same me, no matter what decisions I have made in my life. I still gave my life lots and lots of thought.

See? Told you my response is quite, errrr.. long... Hehehe! Hope you didn't fall asleep!

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Begin Again
POSTED AT 09:30 AM in My Life and what's left of it...

Again, yesterday, I logged on to my MYLOT account and found out that my friend OceanTiara started a discussion about failures and triumphs. You see, I like my friend Tiara very much because she's been so supportive in all my emotional needs. True, she's just an online friend, someone I found in MYLOT but you'll never believe how much this woman can inspire you!

Anyways, Tiara shared an article yesterday which she stumbled upon @ http://www.beliefnet.com/story/183/story_18366_1.html. The article was entitled Begin Again. Two simple words, yet the impact can be greater than any other words combined. The following literary piece was written by a Mr. Bob Perks. I'm not really sure who he is, but I can definitely assure you that the man writes really good. I love his poem, take a peek:

To begin again means that you won't give up.
To begin again means you're trying.
You can either start over and live your life
Or spend the rest of your life slowly dying.

It is never the falling that makes us fail.
It is never the pain or the crying.
You can never fail in life, my friend,
Unless you give up trying.

Challenges in life, yes, I have too much of them. From a failed marriage, an unsatisfactory career, an embarrassed family, broken dreams, shattered visions, a one too many issues...

Sometimes, desperation caused me to stumble again and again that words of hope from friends and even from the church are somewhat inadequate in my hopeless life. Yes, I expected answers then, a touch of miracle, a magic, a roadmap, a light bulb, instant answers to make me stand up on my feet again.

Begin again. It sounds very simple. Yet, it isn't. On those times when I thought my world has ended, beginning again seems to be the most logical thing to do, yet, it may not be easy. But these simple words are indeed the answer. I realized, all my challenges have brought me not only to an ending but to a chance of a new beginning.

A job loss presents an opportunity to start over somewhere else and maybe even in another career.

A failed marriage does not mean you are through loving or being loved. It means there are others just like you needing to be loved. Find them.

A life-threatening disease does not mean giving up. It means starting a new path to recovery and discovering within yourself the ability to fight back and win.

I thank my friend Tiara for sharing these wonderful words, for giving me another reason  to hope that my time will come indeed, that a beginning of something new, something good is here, that life is not over, this is just the beginning...

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Relocating...
POSTED AT 03:47 PM

I was really tired yesterday after walking for almost 2 hours. I was actually looking for another room, maybe a pad or an apartment to share with Ate Arlene (my current boardmate). We badly wanted to move from that darn place. I can't speak for Ate Arlene's reasons so I'll speak for mine. They are as follows:

Boardmates are sooooo noisy. There's a student who brings her classmates and friends upstairs and they even stay until the wee hours, talking, laughing and shouting out loud as if they own the boarding house. Another one is just too noisy with her high heel shoes.

There's only one common comfort room upstairs and it's sooooo dirty. I mean, I don't go out of a dirty bathroom, I always make sure the tiles are clean and I'm not leaving behind my trash or personal belongings. Well, get this, everytime I enter the bathroom, there are hairs and parts of sachets clogging the floor. The tiles are so dirty, it's flooded because of the clog. Yikes! Sometimes, other people just don't have the manners to flush the toilet and even leave cigarette butts floating in the toilet bowl and even their dirty undies. Yuck! And to think we are all girls upstairs, pathetic, unhygienic girls!

My room is soooooo hot. Yes, evenings are even hot (except if it's raining), how much more in the afternoons? And since I'm planning to stay home and work from there, I'll be roasted, along with my computer. And poor Nicholas! I just can't let the baby suffer that much.

My room is sooooo small. Yes, I can't abrely move. I am planning to buy little Nicholas a cabinet for his supply, where shall I put that? The room is already crowded with just a bed and a table, another piece of furniture will suffocate me.

The owner/landlord is soooooo ill-mannered. Yes, he is a very hot-tempered person who shouts at his helpers and insults them in front of many people. He bellows as if he wants to wake the dead, very inconsiderate. Imagine this, they've just started operating on June and they already had 6 batches of helpers. 6 Batches! The fast turn-around should tell him he's got an attitude problem!

I think I've said enough. I mean, I plan to walk for another couple of hours this afternoon to look for another house. I have to transfer before this month ends. I'm not sure I can bear walking and looking for a house next month. It will be a very tiresome activity.

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Voice of an Angel...
POSTED AT 01:53 PM in My Life and what's left of it...

It’s been two days but I'm still floating in a euphoric state. I still can’t believe a Monday can be very great with all the busy stuff to be done at work. Ahhh! I’m still in seventh heaven!

You see, I got a call from an angel. Her virtuous voice wiped away all my worries and fears. She talked to me for twenty minutes or so, to assure me that everything will be fine; to tell me over and over that she misses me and that she loves me so much; to apologize on how the things turned out rather bad and sad for me.

Honestly, the start of the call broke my heart. I just hate it when this angel cries and she did just that at the start of the conversation. I was then crying in an instant too. I hushed her gently, told her everything will be fine. She told me she’s worried of me, that she can’t think straight, that she’s been so sad with my situation. I assure her I can manage, that God will not abandon me, that He’ll protect me all the time. Those words somewhat pacified her anxieties and so we talked about livelier topics as we used to do.

 I’m so happy Mama called after the terrible things that happened between me and the family weeks ago. She’s the most important woman in my life, I love her so much.

Ahhh.. the voice of an angel, it never fails to make things right...

 

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SUDDEN DEATH - Coping up with the pain
POSTED AT 10:01 AM in My Life and what's left of it...

For now I would be lying down in peace; I would be asleep and at rest... (Job 3:13)

These words meant to comfort me in my bereavement state. The words do. Still, I can't seem to stop myself from feeling the pain..

I haven't been blogging for almost a week until now. I am online. I'm supposed to be, since my work is online and I cannot afford to miss work and miss a day's salary. But I felt like a working zombie all these days. I'm... crushed.

I have been grief-stricken, really grieving. GrandPa died last Monday. It was the first news that greeted me on a Monday morning. He was not that old, no, he's definitely young for me. He used to live with us, for many many years, in my Mama's house. Now he's gone, just like that, just like that. It was very sudden.

He was a healthy man. He used to jogged around the house almost every morning. He was very fit. But last Monday, he was suddenly unwell. He was rushed in the hospital because he said he can't breathe. The medical people were puzzled because there seems to be nothing wrong with him. He just left us, he stopped living and embraced death, just like that. The medical people attributed it to old age. Old age! But he's still young!

Mama's message last Monday put me in the hysterical state. I was shocked and then completely devastated. Why not? I haven't seen GrandPa for 5 months, I haven't even kissed him goodbye when I left! Now, I cannot even see him on his burial, even for the last time. It hurts, because I love my GrandPa very much.

I know I cried like a child in the office last Monday but God knows how much I tried to bite my lips and stop the tears from falling. Little Nicholas kept on kicking the entire 2 hours that I cried, maybe he was sad too. I was depressed.

I remembered GrandPa asking me a year ago when I can give him a great grandchild, since I was the only one of his married grandchildren who doesn't have a kid of my own. Little Nicholas is coming, and he never waited for him. Now he's gone, and it's so sudden. I know I should be at least happy that GrandPa's well-rested now but... the pain, the agony of not seeing him again is just too painful to ignore.

To recover fully from a loss means to finish or completely let go. Finishing with a dead loved one does not erase the love or the memories, but it does mean that we have accepted the death, that the pain and sorrow have lessened, and that we feel free to reinvest in our lives. A friend from MYLOT sent me a link that contains these words. The words seem to look really good, really comforting.. but I know it will take time to cope up with the pain completely...

Listening to: Tears in Heaven by Eric Clapton
Feeling: depressed

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If it makes me happy...
POSTED AT 10:28 AM in My Life and what's left of it..., That's what you call Music

...it can't be that bad...

Yes, I just heard Sheryl Crow over the radio, repeating the lines again and again as if she wants me to realize that I'm not supposedly frowning right now even with the fact that GrandPa just died.

I chose to leave. If I don't have the chance, the final chance to see GrandPa again, it's because I chose to leave. It was my choice. And it was one of the evil choices that I thought would give me the least evil of all.

I could have chosen to be a murderer and rob little Nicholas of a chance to live. I could have chosen to face all the humiliation and criticisms of everybody who thought they are righteous. I could have selfishly stood up against the world, in the expense of my parents' peace and  social status. Then I would be there in my hometown still, I can be with GrandPa on his last days in earth. But then, I have chosen to leave, it was MY decision.

However, not every decision we take would ultimately take us to our most coveted happiness. If it makes you happy, it can't be that bad... Having little Nicholas would indeed make me happy, but I felt like the only one happy about it. Will little Nicholas feel happy of my decision? Other people are not. My parents, especially my Papa, weren't happy about the road I've taken. Others have found pleasure in hurting me by being cruel and judgemental. Did it  really make me happy? Why then it seems... bad?

Listening to: If It Makes You Happy by Sheryl Crow
Feeling: distressed

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Moving OUT
POSTED AT 11:24 AM in My Life and what's left of it...

Yeah, I know it looks a little much messy than I thought it would be, LOL! I started packing my things on the 9^th of October (guess that’s obvious on the photo’s date). That was the day after the boarding house’ landlord made a complete fool of himself in front of the house’ tenants as well as of the customers in the eatery downstairs.  Well, he just got drunk actually and started to shout out loud (actually, that’s his normal talking voice) and insult one of the helpers. Then he threatened everybody that he’s the boss in the house and no one is better than him (yeah, as if we tenants care). So, the next morning, I decided to leave. I can’t stand the guy (aside from the so many reasons that I posted here).

All in all, I had to move out 2 big boxes, 3 luggage, my electric deskfan, my rice cooker, and my bundled sleeping bag, pillows and blanket. There’s no way I can squeeze all of those in a tricycle so, I had no choice but to hire a multi-cab and pay the driver PHP200 (whew! This cost me, huh!). Well, it was ok, the driver was the one who carried all my things (he can’t expect me to, I’m all bloated like a helpless dolphin).

It was a very very very tiring day. Yeah, that’s three times the exhaustion of my normal draining activities even though I didn’t carry the boxes to my new nest. Why not? Little Nicholas is not so little anymore, he’s very big already (that I find it difficult to breathe) and was always stirring in my tummy as if he can see Mommy is so exhausted in packing the things, bending there and then, as if he wanted to help and make things easier for me.

However, the fatigue and the expense of that day were all worth it. Goodbye dreadful house, hello heavenly haven…

Feeling: accomplished

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Moving IN
POSTED AT 11:29 AM in My Life and what's left of it...

Yey! Finally! My own room, with my own sink and my own bathroom! LOL! And my floor is tiled too, easier to clean, I guess. Hmmm… this pad is not really big, just about 24 square meters, but as you can see, I got my own queen size bed that comes with a very soft 4-inch foam. So I guess I won’t be using my sleeping bag anymore huh? (I’ll just keep it for emergencies then.) Now how’s that for a great sleep?

Well, I haven’t really organized the room yet (have gotten lazy after packing and unpacking my things) but at least I’ve put on my green curtains and my green bed sheet (still can’t guess what my favorite color is? Whoa!) And yes, I’ve arranged the picture frames and my books, but the sink is a little, errrr… not so organized yet. Hey! I even have my own cabinet under the sink! Now, what do you think I should put there? I have a shelf on the top of the sink too (not shown in the picture), I definitely know what to put there!

And yes! That’s my closet! What’s so biggie about having my own closet? Oh well, the old place doesn’t have one. Yeah, I just have a 4-layer shelf where all my things are stuffed and I had no choice but to get demoralized seeing it everyday. Oh well, here’s a big space for my things and yeah, I can hang my clothes inside.

Just about a meter away from the closet (at its right) and a meter away from the sink (at its left) is the bathroom. I decided not to take pictures of it yet. It’s clean, yeah but well, there are old stains that needed to be scrubbed out. And knowing my condition, I think I’ll have to settle with a clean scented bathroom (yeah, cleaned it already, took me 2 hours, huh!) with some stains left since I can’t bend my body for a long time to take away the blemishes.

All in all, I’m fairly satisfied with my monthly rental of PHP2,500, especially that the water and electricity is free even with my rice cooker, electric fan and iron (mind you, I pay PHP200 per month for the rice cooker at my old place). They will even consider my PC for free if after seeing the monthly bill, not much has been added on the balance. Really cool!

And I like the people here, they don’t ask too much personal questions, they certainly respect my privacy. I like that. And more, Ate Lala at the next unit (about thrice as big as my room) has got 4 kids and the youngest is just 3 months old! She was so happy to teach me all about motherhood, that’s really a plus! The landlady also bakes and sells the yummiest cassava cake in town! I even got my officemates into a cassava and moist cake craze after bringing some boxes in the office.

I hope this place is really nice, that this isn’t just a good start that will turn into a bad end. I am preparing this place for my Little Nicholas. I want him to be comfortable and happy in our new haven.

Feeling: satisfied

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My Personal Computer
POSTED AT 12:07 PM in My Life and what's left of it...

It’s not much. It’s certainly not the most expensive unit out there. The specs are not the best as well. Yes, it’s definitely brand new, but I actually got one of the cheapest yet the most feasible and practical computer package that I can find in the city.

I would have wanted a laptop. But well, aside from the fact that I can’t afford one, I think a desktop is more sensible for a work-at-home Mom like me. I really don’t need to carry my work everywhere, I’ll be working at home, so I guess this will do.

The specs? The processor is CPU S775 Pentium Dual Core 1.60GHZ E2140, which comes with a Samsung 160GIG Hard Disk, a memory of 1GB DDRAM2, a 256MB GEFORCE video card, a 22x LG DVD writer, a 15-inch monitor (yep, not LCD), and of course, the usual bundle of speaker, mouse, keyboard, AVR and glass filter; and yes, the one-year warranty too. Got the package at PHP15,500 at Gaisano Interpace Computer Systems. I guess that isn’t so bad, what do you think?

I’ll be working at home really soon, I can feel my Little Nicholas kicking and wanting to go out. I may have to start telemarketing on November, as I find it difficult nowadays to go to the office at 7AM and get to the 3^rd floor by using the stairs (no elevator there). I just hope PLDT will speed up my DSL application. I cannot work at home without an internet, can I?

Oh well, wish me luck with my PC!

Feeling: optimistic

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Eagle Eye : A preposterously plotted thriller?
POSTED AT 10:53 AM in Big screen ravings

RottenTomatoes just gave Eagle Eye a 29% rating on its Tomatometer; meaning, most of the critics didn't have fun in watching the film. Shucks! That's sad, I enjoyed it, hehehe!

Some commented that the movie doesn't have enough willpower and energy to justify a psychopathic CIA computer's sudden urge to rule over the world. Well, there's a shade of truth in that. I was actually wondering the same thing. Others say that the film was ludicrously plotted and a great example of of technophobia at its most phony way. Awww... Now that's really rude! But I cannot stop these people from saying their piece, those were their opinion. Again, I say, thay have a point.

But the truth is, I enjoyed watching the movie because it's fast-paced and I found no boring minute at all. It was a fun-filled, car-chase adventure with a little romance stuffed behind the gentle looks.

I say Shia LaBeouf is cute! Oh ok, Michelle Monaghan is pretty too but I guess Shia looks better with me in his arms. Hahaha!

D.J. Caruso (TAKING LIVES, DISTURBIA) directs this tale of intrigue that utilizes technology as a character. Jerry Shaw (Shia LaBeouf) is a slacker who works at Copy Cabana--until he returns home after receiving bad news about his...The movie was directed by D.J. Caruso, the guy behind Disturbia. The movie was generally about technology getting beserk and digging more and more into people's privacy. 

Well, Shia played the role of Jerry Shaw, the "not-so-impressive" twin brother of a very impressive CIA guy. Jerry was a mere copyman, yup, he works in a certain Copy Cabana, living a simple, yet happy life, away from his family. He was contented... until his brother was shot and he returned to his apartment full of explosions, guns and ammos. That's when he started receiving mystery calls which orders him around like a General or else he'll die. Hmmm, I must tell you though that I was kinda' irritated with the women's voice on the phone. No reason in particular, I just hate the voice.

Then here comes single mom Rachel (Michelle Monaghan) who is also receiving mystery calls from the same irritating voice. This time, it's not only her life that was at stake, as well as his son's. Shucks, I hate that black-mail stuff!

It's just ridiculous to get picked-up like that, you know. I mean, I hate these stuff against privacy and it gives me goosebumps to think that the future might get as technologically advanced as this. It's just plain scary. Take this movie as an example. It tells us that technology can control over human beings. But well, there's always someone behind the technology right? But why do such things? For what end? For human destruction? Geez! I'm becoming paranoid.

One thing is for sure, Jewish Shia remains an interesting young actor after Transformer. Oh, he's really cute! (But don't worry Hugh, you're still my number one guy, hahaha!). I'm just fascinated that Shia can move from action sequences to emotional moments with ease. Not bad for someone dubbed as "the young Tom Hanks".

Feeling: amused

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Mirrors : Inconsistent and Listless?
POSTED AT 11:26 AM in Big screen ravings

So I watched Mirrors in my own room the other night. I am into suspense and horror, I think they're fun, hehehe! I'm a bit disappointed with the plot but it's scary alright so I'm ok with it. The critics however at Rottentomatoes are not satisfied as they gave a negative consensus and a tomatometer rating of 13%. Shucks! That's super failure right?

I agree with some critics though when they said that the movie has got a ludicrous script which covered its creepy scenes and superb special effects. It's still a good watch, that is. It can still make you jump out of your chair (not me though, hehehe), but well, it makes you wonder about the loopholes of the story after watching it. Yeah, sad to say, the scriptwriter failed to come up with a convincing justification why those mirrors are behaving as nastily as they do. Why they were able to absorb bad spirits and so on... Just don't reflect about those stuff and you have a great movie, honest!

But well, well, well, I am giving Mr. rough-and-tough, handsome Kiefer Sutherland some credits for transforming himself into an  emotional punchbag. I mean, he sure was effective in his scenes huh! Great acting!

The film's director Alexandre Aja is French. Hmmm, I see no touch of French on the movie though. LOL! Sutherland played the role of Ben Carson, a disgraced ex-NYPD cop who attempts to put his tainted past behind him and as well as getting back his wife's love and trust by taking a job as a security guard -- to whereelse? To a haunted place (a store which was closed down after someone put it on fire) full of haunted mirrors! Shucks!

To keep the story rolling, Carson was assigned on the night shift, the time when these mirrors come alive and make the scare. (Hmmm, so they're like vampires too? Afraid of light?). 

Well, bad spirits connect with humans through the mirrors in the store, tough luck for Carson for being there! The mirrors wanted Carson (and all others who were there before him) to find someone for them or else it will kill all his family members through mirrors and/or reflections (the reflections created from water included). 

Honestly speaking, there are plenty of genuine scares in the movie. It even have the oh-so-popular bathtub scene (now I remember a friend who wouldn't want a bathtub in her home because of these scary movies) and I assure you it will make you scream!

I'm just sad that it didn't have a happy ending. I mean, after all the struggles, all the fights with evil and such, it still ended on a bad note. Sad!

Feeling: bouncy

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Body of Lies : A conventional espionage thriller?
POSTED AT 12:53 PM in Big screen ravings

Sorry to all Crowe and DiCaprio fans but I must admit I almost fell asleep watching the movie. (I guess I'm just tired, hehehe!) I mean, Leonardo is good, really good and Russell is still very convincing in his role but the movie relied so much on the performance of both actors to lift it up from a very typical and predictable spy story.

I admit the movie is more intellectual and a bit sharper than other espionage thrillers but it's too swamped with action scenes that were sometimes unnecessary. The movie is well-acted and yes, expertly crafted but well, it is way too intricated to make audience emotionally involved. There was no surprise then when I visited Rottentomatoes' website and found out it's rated 57% only. I guess almost half of the critics were fighting off their sleepy brains as well. Sad.

I was actually expecting too much in this movie. After watching the trailer I was really excited to watch it but when I finally get to it, I wish I didn't expect much. I mean, DiCaprio and Crowe are Oscar winners and blockbuster holders, making the movie a real star-driven film.

Oh! The fact that the setting is mostly in Middle East and the plot is all about US and its fight against terrorism, some people are just not in the mood to watch it. Therefore, it's really smart to downplay the story and focus all attention to its handsome stars. Again, sad.

Leonardo, is as usual, at his best, but he just looks so solemn and grave every second for a CIA agent. I'm juts not used to it. Russell, oh well, Russell is really good, no question about that. He is really funny too and very clever. But he's more like a sidekick to Leonardo, if you know what I mean.

But don't worry. To all action-seekers out there, there will always be gunfights, tortures, and explosions for you to be unthinkingly entertained every now and then.

For me though, the fun started when the story is unfolding -- yup, towards the end of the movie. Just sad that my excitement died that when I realized "hey, I've seen these scenes before!". Yeah, too unoriginal. Also, it would have been good to put enough scenes of Leonardo and Russell together you know, playing off each other.

Well, the film was based on David Ignatius' novel right? He is by the way a columnist in Washington Post. I never read his book, but I'm sure it's more detailed and more comprehensive (of course, it's a book, dummy! hehehe!).  But with all due respect to Mr. Ignatius, a story about a CIA operative who runs to and from to uncover the activities of a major terrorist leader operating outside of Jordan, with all the worries of betrayal from every side of his network, just doesn't click nowadays.

Feeling: bored

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I Have Been Neglecting This Blog
POSTED AT 09:42 AM in My Life and what's left of it...

That's really bad of me!

I have so many excuses to justify my case but it won't be enough still. It still cannot deny the fact that I'm just here in front of the computer everyday, I have access to my blog, but I still haven't posted anything!

Ok, I admit I've been busy with my Little Nicholas' blog. It's a new blog. His own domain. It was blank still. So I had to spend time on it. On the layout, on the design, on the content, then I have to arrange everything... that's on top of my regular job which is actually making me busy, leaving me virtually no time for non-job-related tasks.

Then, I have to reach Mylot's payout too. It's almost the end of the month and I was still a few cents behind the payout. Well, I reached my payout today, and I'm sure they're gonna pay me for this month. That's a relief!

Then I was so busy with other stuff too. My internet connection, my Philhealth and SSS papers, etc. Then, I also took the time in publishing new articles for Associated Content too.

Shucks! So little time, so much to do!

Still, I'm still neglecting this blog and that's unexcusable I guess. Sigh... It feels good to be back though. Especially now that I have so much to tell about life. Let's gossip!

 

Feeling: awake

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Righteous Kill : Simply Below Average?
POSTED AT 10:11 AM in Big screen ravings

Most people respects the badge, everybody respects the gun…

I watched Robert de Niro and Al Pacino getting clever together (yeah, no contest there, nobody’s out-staging somebody as far as my eyes can see) in this movie. Ok, before I proceed with anything else, I admit I really enjoyed watching it and was even considering watching it again if only it isn’t time for Little Nicholas’ bible story.

Yes, contrary to all the criticisms that I've read about the movie, I say the movie is great. So I don't watch Law & Order and CSI, so I'm not so deep, I'm a bit of a shallow person and really easy to please, so I kept on laughing on a number of scenes because I found some lines cute and funny. Ok, so I'm a lame movie-critic because I like what is dubbed by others as below average. What now? I enjoyed watching the movie, and if I'm a below average movie critic because of that, why not? I'm not changing my mind. At least I was wide awake the whole time I watched the movie!

So what was the movie about?

It was actually a story of  a pair of veteran NYPD Detectives David Fisk and Thomas Cowan (de Niro and Pacino) who are assigned on a case of a vigilante serial killer. The pair has been partners for 30 years and they found themselves in the hotseat as the police department pressures them to solve the case before they retire.

The serial killer, as always, have been leaving the victims' bodies with a 4-liner poem to justify his vengeful act. He was a vigilante in every sense of the word, since he targets criminals that have fallen through the cracks of the judicial system.

It got spicy when younger detectives (including Donnie Wahlberg) were added onto the investigating team and suspects David Fisk as the killer. Well, it ended on a twist, though critics at Rotten Tomatoes it was a rather boring, predictable and twisted twist.

Speaking of Donnie Wahlberg, he really looks like one of my personal favorites, Mark Wahlberg. He was actually one of the members of New Kids on the Block. So he really is an artist huh? But well, Mark still looks more handsome than Donnie, don't dare argue with me! Hehehe!

Ok, back to the movie, I think it's unfair to judge Oscar winners De Niro and Pacino's newest movie as "simply below average". It's good. Maybe not the best, but it's still a good movie. C'mon! Give it a chance!

Feeling: blah

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I watched Scooby Doo and Tom & Jerry
POSTED AT 10:48 AM in My Life and what's left of it...

... that really felt good!

Uhmmm, yup, I confess, I still have this childlike affinity to cartoons. Hmp! As if you don’t! Ok you can deny it!

Hey! It was raining last Sunday and the days that followed and I was bored at home. Before I think of sad things again (that always happens on Sundays and practically on all the days, hehehe), I got up from the bed, and turn my PC on. I was considering watching my Tom and Jerry Collection first (got 2 CDs of ‘em with lots and lots of funny episodes), then I remembered there was a Scooby Doo Movie in that new 15-in-1 DVD I bought last Tuesday. I’m not really a fan of Scooby Doo, I’m more of a Scrappy fan, hehehe, but I thought, why not give it a try?

Ok, there I was, laughing like a crazy kid even with Scooby's corny stunts. But oh boy! It felt really delicious to be able to laugh carelessly, like a kid, like the world has no problem at all!

Then I watched Tom and Jerry. There are so many episodes that I haven't watched in television yet. It was actually my first time to watch those episodes and I have the whole room ringing with my crazy laughing. LOL! I caught my neighbor's attention alright (who wouldn't? I laughed really loud!) and so her kids came up to my room and watched the cartoons with me. Cool huh! Then I had a room full of kids, crowded on my bed! I felt like one of the gang! Hahaha!

Well, it was fun while it lasted. I repeat, it felt good to unleash the kid part of me you know. It was also a sort of bonding time with my Little Nicholas. Try it, you'll enjoy it too!

Feeling: childlike

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