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August 7th, 2008

Why?
POSTED AT 01:45 PM in My Life and what's left of it..., Writing for sanity's sake as a favorite post

Why do you cast those angry eyes on me?
Why do you hurt me and then abandon me?
Am I a pest that annoys your very core?
Am I a shadow that you loathe and abhor?

Why do you want to turn your back on me?
Why do you want to see the pain in me?
Am I not your own blood, your own flesh and soul?
Am I meant to get lost when I took the sudden fall?

Why do you make me feel that you don’t care at all?
Why do you make me see that you’re building a wall?
Does it please you to see me ruin my worthless life?
Does it delight you to see me ran over by strife?

Why isn’t it enough that my body aches like hell?
Why do you have to see that I bruise my heart as well?
Can’t you see my tears when I cry with the rain?
Can’t you see that I’m dying and shivering with pain?

There are so many questions that are better left unanswered, reality bites hard and I may not tolerate the pain. So I'm leaving these questions out, in a place where I know the intended recepient won't be able to read it. I know, I just know, that his answers can take me to my grave...

Reading: FAQ on Adoption @ http://www.gov.ph/faqs/adoption.asp
Listening to: I Have Nothing by Whitney Houston
Feeling: hurt

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dilla (guest)

Comment posted on August 13th, 2008 at 09:47 PM

i like your poetry.. i do scribble sometimes.. but nothing like this one..

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maplekisses

Comment posted on August 14th, 2008 at 07:31 AM

Oh thank you. I'm more of "in the moment" writer you know. I write better when I'm in the midst of deep emotion... Just like this one, I wrote this while I was crying in front of the monitor, and finished it after 20 minutes or so... I don't know, the words just flow...

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Romy (guest)

Comment posted on August 7th, 2008 at 03:29 PM

I don't know if this is for real or just a fruit of your imaginative thoughts. My sensitive ego however has felt the load of those words, those questions that desire mercy. I know there is a good answer to all your questions and it is through Jesus Christ. Try to find the answers in His words through the Holy Bible. May you have peace of mind always and forget all the worries.

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maplekisses

Comment posted on August 7th, 2008 at 03:39 PM

Yes, Jesus Christ has all the answers that's why I'm quite contented that the intended recipient don't solicit his view at all. Thanks for sharing your thoughts with me, I appreciate it. By the way, this is for real, if you really want to know...

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